berharap~

berharap...

usah berharap?

tros berharap?

should or shouldn't i?

itula antara konflik kehidupan.

manusia...hamba kpd al-Khaliq.

nak jugak berharap walopon cakap xya berharap..

hakikat kehidupan...kte berharap dan tros berharap.

cme yg membezakan - apa yg kte harapkan..stuju?

dalam certain perkara yg xya berharap...

akan terdetik jugak rse nak berharap...npe ea?

kte masih berharap sbb kte manusia, insan yang lemah...kn?

(you're dealing with a creature full of emotion..get real.)

hakikatnye, pe yg kte buat - will bring us back to HIM

so, kalo kte nak berharap ponn - kne de hubungan dgn ALLAH.

He's our Creator, the Knower of All.

kalo dgn berharap itu, mnjadikan hubungan kte lbeyh dekat dgn al-Khaliq

kalo dgn berharap itu, mnjdkan kte lbeyh bersyukur dgn ar-Rahman

kalo dgn berharap itu, kte akan lbeyh beriman dgn sifat ar-Rahim

jadi dengan berharap itu, tiada salahnye...stuju?

kalo dengan berharap itu, mnjdkan kita insan yang sebalikny

ayuhh...sme2 renung kembali..mungkin ada sesuatu...

sesuatu yang xkne lam perkara brnme - harapan.

hati mahupun perasaan.

kejayaan mahupun kekecewaan.

kebahagiaan mahupun kesedihan.

pemergian mahupun kepulangan.

cme apa yang kte niat dalam sebuah harapan - itu yg membezakan.

cara kte works towardz dt hope - dt's make a real difference.

ALLAH s.w.t jua lah tempat kte berharap.

moga ALLAH s.w.t tetapkan hati ini pada jalanNya...ameen~

p/s: mohon maaf salah dan silap.

فَإِن تَوَلَّوْاْ فَقُلْ

حَسْبِيَ اللّهُ لا إِلَـهَ إِلاَّ هُوَ عَلَيْهِ تَوَكَّلْتُ

وَهُوَ رَبُّ الْعَرْشِ الْعَظِيمِ

[Allah:is sufficient] [Allah:no god but He] [Allah:trust in] [Allah's attributes:Exalted in Power and Might] [Allah's attributes:Lord of the Throne of Glory Supreme]

9:129 But if those [who are bent on denying the truth] turn away, say: "God is enough for me! There is no- deity save Him. In Him have I placed my trust, for He is the Sustainer, in awesome almightiness enthroned." (at-taubah)

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..............

Alhamdulillah,

amount of blood pumped by

each ventricle per minute

a.k.a my cardiac output is still sufficient.

my heart is still beating..i'm still alive.

It's already the 13th week in year 2010.

by next week, it's already April..huargh!

mggu neyh xm jekk (actually cam kuiz ahh)

physiology: shocked xm cardiovascular

biochemistry: end-course xm

histology: data show xm..

p/s: done..tawakkal ohh~

now, blaja dan tros blaja!

i'm still searching for the right soul,

blaja nk menjadi dewasa seiring usia;

growing up bsme masa...huuu~

being a grown up is rilly a tough thing

to handle, to face..hey, dt's reality..huh.

- conflict is everywhere; no conflict, no life.

oOh..sila ketahuankan diri anda.

it's your attitude uhh..

bukan salah Satan, salah diri yg lemah!

mujahadah oit..!

[Allah's promise] [Satan:fails in his promise]

14:22 And when everything will have been decided, Satan will say: "Behold, God promised you something that was bound to come true! I, too, held out [all manner of] promises to you -but I deceived you. Yet I had no power at all over you *: I but called you-and you responded unto me. Hence, blame not me, but blame yourselves. It is not for me to respond to your cries, nor for you to respond to mine: for, behold, I have [always] refused to admit that there was any truth in your erstwhile belief that I had a share in God's divinity." Verily, for all evildoers there is grievous suffering in store.

* In his commentary on this passage, Razi remarks: "This verse shows that the real Satan (ash-shaytan al-asli) is [man's own] complex of desires (an-nafs): for, Satan makes it clear [in the above] that it was only by means of insinuations '(waswasah) that he was able to reach [the sinner's soul]; and had it not been for an already-existing [evil] disposition due to lusts, anger, superstition or fanciful ideas, these [satanic] insinuations would have had no effect whatsoever."(Quran Ref: 14:22 )

>> moga hati yang pernah suatu ketika jaoh drMu ini kembali kpdMu.

dan moga Kau tetapkan hati ini pd jlnMu, ya ALLAH..ameen~

_salam mujahadah buat smue_

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tetiba....

tetiba aku rindu mereka

tetiba aku tringat kt dorg

..........................

sahabat2 seSKM

*yg buat reunion tyme aku tadak*

nafis, wajj, ajim, wan

ijat, dilah, bila n otherz

aku rindu ott kat korg

ade yg 7 taon aku xjumpak uhh

sob.sob.sob

sahabat2 seMMAS dan laen2

aku rindoO kt korg weit..siyez.

zaman skola menengah aku yg mcm2 citer

skarang masing2 da merata2..

sesungguhnya, kumerindui kalian semua!

nyz, onie, shath, sayyid, mue, teynn, mei lin, dayah, nomuzaza,

pqah, kamila, muna, ijat, mowk, kd dan ramai g..

misz ya lotz!

tapi ntah nape laaa...

aku tringat sgt kt sorg sahabat aku neyh.

yang kali terakhir aku jumpak tyme f5

yang lahir pada 3 Zulkaedah 1411, khamis

huhhu ada yg ckp 2 zulkaedah

*tatao la btul ke x tarikh neyh*

aku tao l8ly aku da bnyk wt salah kt beliau

mebi sbb tuu beliau da smaken menjaoh

aku tatao cene nk balas budi baek beliau

yang bnyk gak tolong aku

aku slalu pk mcm2, aku slalu ckp mcm2 kt beliau

tp beliau sentiasa cool, positif je...

siyezly itu buat aku jelez.

..........................

aku nk amek kesempatan neyh

nk mintak maaf kt smue.

maafkan insan ini ehh.

............................

weitt..

mekaseh..

arigatou ohh

korg stil lg bshbt ngn aku

stil contact aku, fb, ym, msgs.

tellin me to believe in myself

when others are denying me

walopon aku neyh ntah pape

siyezly, aku rindoO

aku rindoO korg...

syukran, jzkk

may ALLAH swt bless dz bond here and thereafter

ameen ya rabb~ misz ya!

*lets pray for our success regardless of diff. path taken*

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now....

only now...

she could see clearly..

crystal clear, huh? dunno.

hey, better late than never...rite?

little is better than none, sah?

She knew that by failing her exams she could jeopardize her whole future....

failure isn't an option for her right now.

but still, the external and internal factors keep blocking her ways.

wt if her failure could be a fitnah for her religion?

surely her future here and thereafter would be affected.

that's called a total loss, total damaged..ruined everything.

not to mention

her failure would break some one's heart

her parents, her relatives, her teachers, her best friends

her loved ones back in Malaysia.

she's trying to get away from

the guilts that still haunts

lets hope and pray

that she'll manage to get through all of this

aiwah..

it's time for her to walk her talk.

let them be...let it be.

time to act, before it's too late.

May ALLAH swt bless her in health, body and soul..

ameen~

indeed...no doubt..

smile, it makes a world of difference.

she's being left behind

now she's no one

being left alone

let her start from zero to hero, mumkin?

ask ALLAH for a stronger back - this path isn't as easy as it seems to be.

people changes and things went wrong, but life goes on!

stop denying the facts, live with it!

lets do the best

and

leave all the rest to ALLAH the Almighty.

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ohhh...

kepala.

jgn laa penink

jgn laa memusing.

aku xmo amek aspirin lg..

aku xmo being left behind sbb xdpt g klas

enfon.

jgn laa merajok.

jgn laa diam cm ari tuu lg

xkeruan aku dibuatmuu ari tuu

tetibe contacts ilang all msgs lesap

ohh...ko amat bermakna - bnyk kngn.

buku.

aku mtk maaf..

slalu xsempat, xlarat.

aku slalu bukak ko lambat2.

ohh, buku!! pasni kte study sme2 ea!

toshiba

ko mmg mcm2

tlg laa...jgn tertarik pdnya.

stakat biase2 sudeyhh lerr oit..

sle gnekn die lam mode gnbtte!

oitt...study=senyum=gembira

xya tensen2...huhuu.

moga ALLAH swt tetapkan hati ini pd jlnNya...ameen~

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at last....?

at last!

Alhamdulillah,

stil hv d chance to blaja sth related ngn physics stuff gak! hee

smlm, 170310 - biophysical - physiology lecture!

aku euphoria siott...

senyum, sengih smue ahh + makan wafer tyme lecture!

Sblum ni physiology of cardiovascular system wif Prof. Dr . Abd Moniem

tp smlm da masok physiology of vascular system wif Prof. Dr. Hany Gamal

heee~ pnye laa xcited ott..smpei msg owg mesia..hehe.

sorry..mesti penat enn kwn ngn insan ntah pape neyh..huhu.

wee~

da jumpak kembali

FORCE,

PRESSURE,

NEWTON

etc

n even equation siap de

pi ohh!

(ceyh, pi je ponnn)

tp, sitezly ckp ott

ingt senang ke nk jumpak

menda alah -pi- neyh lam medic huh?!!

heheheheee~

eh2...rindOo add math ahh plak!

dan aku bwu tao (=sedar ahh)

pi= it is a mathematical constant that change proportionality to equality!

yeah, aku dalam bidang medic - dts d facts!

lets forget the "road not taken" okeyh?

ALLAH, He's The Knower of All

He knows wts best for you!

cheer up, be grateful...act like one.

sbb

''Alhamdulillah, maseyh lg idup: SA node stil hantar impulse kt heart n heart dpt contract, n pons n medulla pon stil function so still able to breath, respire"-sesi tazkirah Dr. Akma comey

Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli hal...

mOga ALLAH tetapkan hati ini pada jalanNya. ameen~

p/s: cg physics- cg. Haron n cg Paridah!!

cg +m3 - cg. Syukran a.k.a cg Lon, cg. Fauzi, Cg Ridzuan!! mekaseh cikgu!!

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cari..?

satu.

aaaaaaaaarghhh.

aku yg cari masalah

or masalah tuu yg dtg kt aku?

.........................

dua.

jap2...

masalah yg ko ckp neyh mmg btul mslh ke?

ntah2 masalah tuu peluang utk ko upgrade diri ke enn?

cehh...bajet maintain ahh..

tp btul pe aku ckp...kn?

pehal uhh?

serabott je ko.

ketidakbetulan diri agakny..

woitt..stabil uhh...

kalo FINAL EXAM nk dekat da...

MATI tuu lg laa dekat...kn?

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ya...

Ya, kurenung dan kurenung kembali...

aku memang hambaMu yang jahil dan khilaf..

Aku melupakan Engkau..

hakikatny, Engkau sentiasa memerhati dan melindungiku...

tyme aku merapu, tyme aku sengal dan menyengalkan,

tyme aku ntah pape, evrytyme...

evry now n then...

you're always there...

Kebahagiaan yang aku rasa,

seringkali aku celebrate ngn insan-insan tersayang,

sampai aku lupa pada Engkau, pemilik kebahagiaan itu.

pemilik yg patot aku celebrate lebeyh2 lg...

'naseb baek', 'yeay' kadangkala mendahului Alhamdulillah.

it's juz a simple word - but dt's d thing yg slalu terabai.

Kekecewaan yang aku rasa jugakk,

menyebabkn ku hilang pertimbangan lalu lupa

bahawa diriMu selaku kaunselor utamaku,

aku menafikan hakMu sebagai tempat pertama

dan utama untuk meluah rasa...

Maafkan aku al-Khaliq,

kiranya aku mengecewakan diriMu

sebagai Tuan pada hamba yang sungguh rendah tahap kehambaanNya.

today...semangat bagai nk rak - aku sedar.

tomorrow..lepas smngat yg rak tuu ilang - aku lupa.

Hari ini, aku menjadi hambaNya yang paling bersyukur.

Hari esok, akulah yang paling kuat menyakitkan hatiNya dan merosot prestasinya.

biarlah sedikit namun istiqamah..cene nk yg bnyk kalo yg sket pon xterjaga...huhuu~

but bear in mind...

diri, tolong sedar..

walk your talk.

يَا أَيُّهَا الَّذِينَ آَمَنُوا لِمَ تَقُولُونَ مَا لَا تَفْعَلُونَ

كَبُرَ مَقْتًا عِندَ اللَّهِ أَن تَقُولُوا مَا لَا تَفْعَلُونَ

61:2 O YOU who have attained to faith! Why do you say one thing and do another?

61:3 Most loathsome is it in the sight of God that you say what you do not do! -

Astaghfirullah... Ya ALLAH, moga Kau tetapkan hati ini pada jalanMu...u noe wt's best 4 me, for u're my Creator...dan jadikanlah aku dalam kalangan hambaMu yg beryukur dan beramal seperti hambaMu yg bersyukur...moga ilmu yg kupelajari dapat membuang kejahilan diriku ini dan ilmu tersebut bermanfaat buat hamba2Mu yg laen...ameen~

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i know....

I know you've been busy, I had things to do too.

We haven't talked for some time, I wonder if everything's fine...

I had other stuff on me mind, I'm sure you did too,

but I just had to tell you this, my friend...

hey, I miss you!

..................

I notice that -

i constantly wondering how you are doin,

then sitting alone with my mind set so far,

reminiscing about your smile, your voice...

I'm missing you too much, i guess!

I can't explain y - coz even i dunno y...

would I be out of line if I said I miss you, huh?

clinging on to sanity but crossing d lines, again?

...........................

i'm juz afraid of losing those who are close to me

well, a friend of mine keep on telling me to expect the unexpected

be grateful, love and appreciate things that u have

coz u'll never noe whether u're stil here when tomorrow comes.

stop denying d facts, live with it.

................................

ALLAH grant me the serenity to accept things that i cannot change;

courage to change the things that i can

and wisdom to know the difference.

ameen~

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